The dilemma of a TRANSFORMER!

Oh yeah...actually it should be great to announce that YAP HONG LI has been officially graduated from INTI INTERNATIONAL UNIVERSITY in MAY 2013.

However, it doesn't look good at all. No longer a student, but an adult. Everyone is asking me about my future planning.

I am doubt...Earlier on, I have my very first little dream. Yet, the dream cannot be fulfilled in the end due to some financial constraints. Alright, i can understand that. I decided to let go the plan of working and travelling in US.

Later, my dear JOYSEET has come out with fantastic idea which we delay our plan for work and travel. After some researches, we have finally decided not to go US but make it at AUSTRALIA.
YEAH...it sounds good to go now. We both have an agreement. Before the age of 25, we must step into the land of AUSTRALIA, whoever failed to perform will need to treat the other party for a FREE TRIP to MALDIVES! what an evil plan! wakakaka...but i am really look forward on this.

Unfortunately, as i have graduated, bad things came together as well. It seemed like the god is challenging my tolerance and patience in deciding on the matters.

I am just 22!. Why do you treat me in such a cruel way? I am wondering.
Am i looked tough enough to face all these obstacles? Am i seemed so strong to be superwoman?
In fact, i don't. But i need to pretend that I AM!
Nobody knows how suffer I am. No one knows how struggle I am.

I have my way. I have my plan....But why...nobody is willing to listen to me?
Whenever i have made a decision, I don't get support.
I knew there are a lot of considerations but standing in the line of being selfish or not...i really can't decide on which way to go...

My new journey just get started....This is about my life...Why I can't make the decision myself?
Doesn't mean that your stand is wrong, but I wish that you can hear from my part as well.

What does FAMILY means?
FAMILY remind me of Father and Mother I Love You.
That's it.

Especially to my dearest daddy...you know what...you have invested few hundred thousand just to provide me the education. And wanting to me to work for you after graduated? Understand that you have been using years to build your dynasty, you don't want it to be ended just like this but  wishing to expand it bigger and wider...I understand that...i knew all that...

From another point of view, have you ever asked me about my opinion? whether i like it or not? whether i have my own planning or not...if i have no idea what to do where to do, i am fine with all your arrangement.
BUT....i have my own life planning...

I blame all these on my brother...a stubborn and hot-tempered guy who never think of other's
No doubt, he is the best brother ever as he cares his family member...but...when the time he get mad...sorry...he is crazy...

My brain is extremely complicated now...I dont even know what i wanna tell...
Just write on the things that float on my mind now...
Where have all the angels gone? I need angels to save me from the devils....
Phobia of making decision...especially....when the decision is crucial...and when it is all related to me!

FML!!!!!