I AM LOST

To be honest, I have to say that I am lost now!

I'm not so sure about the things that i am doing now. I am afraid of the decision I made can make an affection towards my family. Is this so called fear of unknown..?

Whether to accept the job offer? whether the job suit me or not? whether should accept the one with higher salary? whether to take the one which give higher status? I really dont know what to choose...

I am extremely suffer right now!
None of them in my family could understand my situation. Therefore, the only way i can do is...keep all the things in my mind.

Fuck My Life! Why it turns our life in trouble so sudden? It's not fair to me....
I knew that's nothing fair in this realistic world. But just i couldn't take it!


Another thing that make me suffer is the guy! I am wondering how he takes me in his mind. Am I really important to him? but why he seemed not really care about me? or he is busying with his stuff? I knew I am getting more and more greedy. I don't deserve any cares and loves from anyone actually.
But I found his word make some meaning to me....It this is going to happen...please la be frank to me...
I don't like to play in guessing game...

And..i don't have the patience to play on this kind of games....

Alright...fine...I am just too complicated...

I don't know what i want....I don't know where shall i go...I lost my direction....

I gave a lot of advice to my friends, relatives, and others....but just can't find a simple one to tell myself...
I am out of control!!!

In short, I am LOST!